Insanity...

My hubby and I ordered the Insanity workouts...we are hoping to get them this week and start next week... so my idea of doing Jillian and running are gone.. I am going to try and run every day this week and then go insane with Insanity.. (I know cheesy right) and that is when I will take full body measurements and keep you all updated weekly with weight loss.. and then at the end of the 60 days then I will let you know all results...

Also, I have decided I am going to be running a 10k in July.. July 24th to be exact...  I  am so excited and I feel this Insanity will really get me moving and ready for this.. however, I was worried that since I wouldn't be running during these 60 days I would lose all of my hard work of running, but I think it will be the opposite... after these 60 days, I am going to head back on over to my couch to 10k program and try to kick it out to where I can be running at least 6 miles before my race.. my hubby thinks I can do it... so I feel confident in myself that it can be done!!  Keep checking back to hear about my little successes!!

Feel soo good!

I feel so good that I ran 4 times this week... I was exhausted last night but I did it.. and it was so worth it.. I even had a little urge to run this morning..but I decided to take a break and let my body rest... I am excited for next week.. again like I said before in the earlier post... everyone have a GREAT weekend! Talk to you next week!

Timeline of pictures...

I wanted to post some past pictures of myself so I could see if I could tell a weight loss difference in my face... I feel like my face is thinner when I look at myself in the mirror and comparing it to other pictures, but I am just not quite sure... cause my hair is longer now than it was in the other pictures... Let me know what you think, if you can tell a difference... as for my clothes... I think I have lost something... some of my stuff fits comfortably... whereas before it was just a little too tight... so anyway.. yay for me.. We are going to have a very chill weekend... I don't really want to do anything, my hubby just got home last night and we just want to hang out.. I will be trying to get my measurements in tonight and up on here soon after.. and then come Tuesday, I will start the shred... anyway enough chat... here are the pictures!

This picture was in September 2012...
I was still running in fact I had just run my 4th 5k.

This I believe was in October 2012, I think
 I let the running go a little bit.... I think I can see
a total difference in my face between these pictures....

November 2012... I remember cause I
 took this before I went to vote...still, I don't think
 I was keeping up with the running like I wanted to ..

Ugh.. not really loving this picture.. I think this is in December..
when I cut my bangs to get a different look...?

December/January?? feeling like my face is bloated here.... 

I like this picture, not sure when I took it..but
probably around the same time  as this one in
pink...

back on my running game... I know I started back running
in January...  I know this was before my run

Before my run... I think my face looks slimmer...

After my run, just recent like a week ago....

actually got ready for the day.... this was about
a week ago, same day as the shirt in the green above.

This was yesterday...  to me, it looks like I am
thicker in the face than the one in the
black shirt...

Weigh in Friday!!

Today is my weigh in day, and I am at 192... so back down a little bit.. I have to admit that I haven't been the best this week... with my hubby out of town I have kinda laxed a little... I have still been trying, but not quite as hard... when he gets back I will get back on track.. Oh, and I found a competition I might be joining to help me stay motivated by losing weight.. It sounds like lots of fun and I really want to do it!

Next week, I am going to start doing Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred.. AGAIN... well I have only completed the entire thing once, but I know it works... its just sometimes hard to keep up with it... but I am sooo determined to lose this weight.. I am going to have my husband help me take measurements on Sunday and then I want to post them.. hopefully with no judgement... (this is still scary for me to put it all out there..) and then I will be able to know how many inches I lose... or whatever I lose while doing the 30 day shred... only thing is, I am going to be doing the Shred Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday and the other days I am going to continue with my 10k training.. oh, and I am going to be running a 10k in July... Yay!! good news to me... something to look forward to!

Happy Friday everyone.. hope everyone has a great weekend, I know I will.. and I am going to be doing a post with pictures... of progress throughout the last 9ish months... please check back.. and leave a comment so I know someone is listening.... :)

Jeans....

After my run today, I thought I am not going anywhere today... so I am going to try on some of these jeans I have and see how they fit.. well, they do fit!!! Now if I could just get rid of my stomach... then all would be well...Here is what they look like on....Still a work in progress..but its progress right??

Goal: if I can be down 3lbs or more by the 1st of May... what could be my reward??? I just got a $250 gift card in the mail... and I really want to get some new running shoes.. but that is not a big enough reward... what could be a good reward??? I think I am going to ask my husband to get my  hair done and eyebrows waxed for mothers day, so.... hmmm.. what could I do?? register for a race??? any suggestions are welcome!

blah... blah... blah.. is the way I feel!

Feeling a little down today.... hubby is out of town... baby boy just turned 3 today... I don't know what it is... just kinda sad... I am waiting for my ipod to charge so I can get on my treadmill and run.. hopefully that will make me feel better...  So Friday, I ran..  and after I ran I decided I wanted to get ready for the day... so I did... It FELT SO GOOD to get ready and do my hair... and put make-up on... it was so worth it... anyway.. if anyone is reading this I am still good on no carbonation... and am really making an effort of no sugar... I have come to realize that  on the weekends its kinda harder to stay away from the sweets... especially if they are in your house.. (birthday cake for the birthday boy) We still have about half of the cake left today... and I just don't feel like even touching it... Feel pretty good about that... Here are some pictures of my run on Friday and me after I got ready...

Before my run... wow... yikes! (LOL)

After my run... wow got some of that red color going...

Ready for the day.. feels good.. and its is amazing what some makeup can do for you....! :)

Hope you all have a great start to the week...!!! My goal this week is really to watch my intake.... really burn some calories on the treadmill, and drop a pound?? please!!!

Slacking a little...

I have been kinda busy to get on here and just blog... So I thought this morning before my run (while my I let my breakfast settle) I will blog and tell you a little about the last week.

Last Friday, my husband and I had family coming in to town for our daughters baptism. I had been preparing all week for the house to be clean, laundry to be done, food to be taken care of. Friday came around and it was all ready, ready for our families to come over tomorrow for lunch. Saturday flew by, and I was sooo good... I made these peanut butter fingers that I always make and are so delicious, but did I have one?? NO!! Yay for me! I had self control. (they were gone so fast, I could have grabbed one but decided not to) but I decided not to have one. I did though have some Country Time Strawberry Lemonade, I know I am trying to cut out as much sugar as possible... BUT I have changed my mind a little on that... I will be getting to that soon enough.

Sunday came around and at church I teach some 7 and  8 year olds, and for weeks I have been telling them if they are good, listen to the lesson, and participate then I will bring them treats. This week I did.. and I only had 4 kids in my class and I had 24 little candy bars... (uh-oh) so, I let them all take two and took the rest home, gave my kids some and my husband some.. and I had 2..! I know I was dying for chocolate!! and I really did savor those 2 little candy bars... since Sunday, I feel like I have been craving something sweet and I have to tell you that I have been strong enough to control it.. with a little help from my husband..! Wednesday was a little struggle for me, but I opted for some Pringles instead of chocolate candy.. I know not much difference right??? but I was struggling, so I got them. (not sugar..) anyway.. It's my 2 year olds 3rd birthday Monday and my hubby is going out of town so we are celebrating it tomorrow (Saturday).. and yes, we are having cake and ice cream... I am making a batman cake... really excited!!

So here is my thinking... I am going to change my goal to no sweets till the end of summer to, VERY controlled sweets! I want to be able to enjoy my sons birthday and not feel so guilty about having a small slice of cake and a small scoop of ice cream if I choose...I really feel like I can control it now, and that I won't let it get out of crazy control like before... I still have not had a sip of carbonation!!! Yes! broke that habit, although on my bad days what I wouldn't give to have  DDP.  And its so tempting cause my husband has Diet MD in the house constantly...but I have been strong and not had any drinks of it.. just water and milk... So, I think i am making some progress... please help me stay on track....

As for my weigh in, I totally forgot to weigh myself before breakfast... I didn't have a huge breakfast, just yogurt and 2 slices of toast.. but I did weigh myself a little bit after breakfast.. I ate about an hour ago... and my weight was at 193... So I guess I am maintaining... give or take right?? I was going to say I will weigh myself tomorrow, but I am really trying not to weigh myself too much... so I will wait until next Friday... oh, and wish me luck my husband is going to be out of town for a whole week.... I am wanting to splurge a little and have a little fun... but then I think, would it be fun afterwards... so I think I might try and get some different ideas of healthy fun foods to eat...  keep coming back please, leave me a comment!!

Now, I need to get up and go for my run... supposed to go play at my friends house... I know I need that!!! :)

Another Drumroll please!!.... (and no judging)

So, I had said I would post my weight on here on Friday. And well, today is Friday. I woke up this morning and weighed myself. I was down almost 3 lbs since I weighed last!! Wahoo!! I was waiting to see a weight loss... its not much but I will take a loss any day!  I think the last time I was around this weight was when I very first started running... getting my body to move made me lose quite a bit of weight, and then I stopped, and it all came back on.. This time I am determined to lose it and never let it come back. I am really trying hard to keep up with the running, and eating much healthier (well, trying my best.. and doing pretty well.) So enough of my yacking.... are you ready for this???

April 12, 2013 my weight is 192.6


I know right?? Still a lot... people might be shocked with how much I weigh.. but oh well, I am doing something about it.. changing and making myself better with one day at a time. I am very embarrassed about this number, but determined to get to my goal weight...  which is... 130. I would be happy with 140ish... but I would really love 130.. (not sure if that is doable but why doubt it..) lets just see what happens!


Wow... that was a load off.. still scared to push the publish button... scared of being judged... or whatever... I can do this and I am going to 3.....2.....1....

Drum roll please....

I am really scared to do this, but I am going to do it anyway... its going to help me stay honest with myself and probably keep me motivated to do better...  These are going to be my before pictures... I took them a few days ago and want to use them as something I NEVER want to become again... I know I can do this with the right motivation and healthy eating... here is to a new me!!

 Please, please, don't laugh.. it is taking me a ton of courage to do this... and tomorrow I will be weighing myself and posting that as well with my measurements. I want to keep a close document of my progress..  

Upped my game.. running game that is

Today is my running day, and I decided I would move to the next day on the couch 2 10k app. It was killer, but I did it..and was sweating like CRAZY... but I feel good.. and I even decided to take a picture afterwards... its not beautiful, but I am keepin' it real here..

 This is me in all my running glory... I know I look pretty gross...but I am so proud that I ran today...

This is for real!!

Last night I told my husband I am done with my Diet Dr. Pepper obsession. No more carbonation,  AND... from now until the end of the summer, no sweets!!! Do you think I can do it?? I sure am going to try...

Here it goes!!

Today I have decided that I am going to put it all out there.. for the world to see. I am going to start recording my weight loss journey. I want to post pictures, post my weight... be accountable to all my readers (if I get any) and gain motivation from those who might read as well. I am tired of looking the way and feeling the way I do. I want a change, a lifestyle change. I am not doing this to be skinny. I want to be healthy, I want to be able to play with my kids for long periods of time. I am tired of being tired, feeling winded... and plain old not fitting into my clothes. Even more I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and say, I feel good. I look good and I love myself.  I am hoping I will take some pictures and post them up here soon.. Please join me in my journey to lose the weight and regain control of my life...